I have recieved my call to serve in the Texas, McCallen mission, leaving September 23rd. I’m still adjusting to the idea of being Hermana Jensen. Almost a month later, I still have to re-read the letters on that fancy paper (which has a secret message if you hold it up the light BY THE WAY) to remind myself that it’s all real.
I debated a bit about starting this blog. First, blogs aren’t really what all the cool kids are doing anymore. Luckily I have recently given up on the idea of being cool, since I like to go to bed around 8:30 wherever possible. Second, there are thousands of these things out here. Thousands of missionaries and preparing missionaries and RM’s are willing to flood your head with advice and stories and inform that you SHOULD INDEED be worried about which color of hangers to bring to the MTC!! THANK YOU…I’ll add that to my list of things to stress about.
I’m kidding…I love missionary blogs. I do.
And there are millions of returned missionaries, each waiting anxiously to tell you every little detail about their own mission because it was a very special experience for them. But that’s the thing; everybody’s mission is different. Everyone will be changed in their own special way because Heavenly Father prepares unique experiences for all of us. It’s kinda a big part of His MO. My own mission expereince will be beautifully unique and as wonderful as the stories and experiences of others are, they aren’t mine. Or yours.
SO, why would I clutter the internet with my experiences? How could I add anything new to what has already been said before? Why not just let someone else with more perfect hair or better writing abilities bear their testimony to you? Right?
WRONG! Bad missionary mindset!
The whole reason we go on missions is because of a deep-set belief that someone can be changed by what I have to say and maybe, just maybe, by the unique way that I have to say it. Wouldn’t it just be easier if God gave President Monson the ability to be everywhere in the world and let HIM preach and testify perfectly?? But Heavenly Father does not do that (even though how cool would that be, you could invite President Monson to your family BBQ). He calls young adults, basically babies. He asks them to leave their safe bubbles where (at least in my case) they’ve never even been offered anything against the Word of Wisdom. He calls them, prepares them, sets them apart, and gives them the strength to preach with power as they are obedient and willing to work with Him to overcome their weaknesses.
I pray this is what He will do for me. I’m just one girl, with a whole lot of flaws and a whole lot left to learn about this big ol’ world. But, I also have a huge desire to serve and to do my Heavenly Father’s will. Sometimes, as President Clark who just left BYU-Idaho once told us, He has to educate our desires. But as we turn to Him, we find that what we really want was His will all along.
Now, if you have made it this far in this post, please please resist the urge to skim this next quote. I know it’s tempting to look it over, think, “Hm, good stuff” and go find something else on the internet that takes less concentration. Trust me, I do it all the time. PLEASE read this one carefully, because it has changed my life.
Yes, men and women who turn their lives over to God will find out that he can make a lot more out of their lives than they can. He will deepen their joys, expand their vision, quicken their minds, strengthen their muscles, lift their spirits, multiply their blessings, increase their opportunities, comfort their souls, raise up friends, and pour out peace. Whoever will lose his life to God will find he has eternal life.
-Ezra Taft Benson